It is finally Saturday, and I can't seem to wrap my head around how I made it through a full week of work without calling in sick once. Thursday and yesterday were a bit of a disaster seeing as i was 20 minutes late one day and an hour and a half late the next day for work, but none the less, I went. Aleasha a few months ago, would have quit if she didn't feel like going to work after a night of partying. Or in this case, i should say night(s) of partying.
This week has kind of been all over the place for me, emotionally. Actually i think it has been for every one around me as well.
The anticipation of waiting for Meg to come back finally came to an end. As soon as she called on Tuesday night saying she was back, I became instantly hyper and just couldn't wait to see her. But I couldn't' help but notice that as happy as she was to be back, it wasn't where she wanted to be, and I know that feeling to the tee, and it sucks. I back her decisions to move to Toronto in October, but can't help but be skeptical about the fact that what happened to me could happen to her. But i suppose you have to look at the comparison of the "other halves" in the relationships, and it doesn't worry me one bit, cause Blake is such a solid fellow.
I think it's safe to say that there is definitely a new found friendship between Rae and I. She is the most real, down to earth girl I have probably ever met. And I hope she sticks around for awhile with everything that has been going on. I've basically been living at her apartment all week and there have definitely been some interesting nights, and hard mornings. I'm gonna take initiative on looking for apartments for us and hopefully find something for August.
Speaking of new found friendships, as much as I constantly name call, pick on and make fun of Andrew, I am so happy a little triangle has been formed with him, Rae and I. No matter what we did this week, we were smiling and laughing. He's a good guy to have around as a friend, and I hope that one keeps growing as well. It's so nice to have all these new, and somewhat new, faces in my life. It's a really nice change and a break in pattern for me.
I haven't really liked anyone since Kyle, there have only been crushes and stupid flings, and I thought I was starting to like someone and it was somewhat of a nice feeling. But once again it built up and then fell to shit. I set myself up and I feel like an idiot. I always seem to end up choosing the ones that I know aren't good for me; maybe I like feeling helpless in the whole situation, i dunno.
Health wise, I think I'm getting there. Now that I'm a vegetarian, I feel like I'm eating so much better. In regards to saying I'm anorexic, I'm not. I know it's not something to joke about, and I feel kind of bad that I've said it around certain people. However, I have lost weight. I weighed myself at the beginning for the week and just now, and I've lost 5 pounds this week. Most likely due to the lack of sleep and I haven't been sitting at home on my ass eating. People think I'm crazy for wanting to lose weight, but i call it my "depression" weight from back in the winter, and i want it gone.
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow for something else that i was called in for, and I'm helplessly nervous, being a hypochondriac and all. They just want to be sure, because my first test results showed up kinda all over the place and abnormal. (I'll explain with better detail when I know what's going on. If i don't write about it, it's because everything is OK)
I haven't seen my parents in practically a week. Especially my father. I also haven't spoken to my brother in what seems to have been about a week as well. Which is one of the main reasons I'm taking a week off going out. I've spent so much time away from home, and I have a lot to catch up on.
Last night and Thursday night were fun. I have to say I expected a bit more out of it, but I'll take what i got. I am so happy that I saw Carly. It's been close to a year since I've seen her, and she is still exactly how I left her. (With shorter, pretty hair, however) I wish I had more time to hangout with her , or say goodbye for that matter. (I got excited for the trip to Taco Bell with Sacha, Mel, Cheapie and Shane) It was also amazing to meet Katie Brown, she was a fun girl to have around, always filled with positivity and smiles. Getting some of those dudes on the tour to dance with Rae and I was priceless. Dancing to Rhianna with Andrew just take the cake though.
Oh my, it seems like this entry has become long and probably tedious. I suppose I've summed it up enough anyway. Excited for a few shows coming up. (Tegan and Sara being one of them).
"I'm guilty of this you should know this
I broke down and wrote you back
before you had a chance to
Forget, forgotten, I am moving past this
giving notice"
This week has kind of been all over the place for me, emotionally. Actually i think it has been for every one around me as well.
The anticipation of waiting for Meg to come back finally came to an end. As soon as she called on Tuesday night saying she was back, I became instantly hyper and just couldn't wait to see her. But I couldn't' help but notice that as happy as she was to be back, it wasn't where she wanted to be, and I know that feeling to the tee, and it sucks. I back her decisions to move to Toronto in October, but can't help but be skeptical about the fact that what happened to me could happen to her. But i suppose you have to look at the comparison of the "other halves" in the relationships, and it doesn't worry me one bit, cause Blake is such a solid fellow.
I think it's safe to say that there is definitely a new found friendship between Rae and I. She is the most real, down to earth girl I have probably ever met. And I hope she sticks around for awhile with everything that has been going on. I've basically been living at her apartment all week and there have definitely been some interesting nights, and hard mornings. I'm gonna take initiative on looking for apartments for us and hopefully find something for August.
Speaking of new found friendships, as much as I constantly name call, pick on and make fun of Andrew, I am so happy a little triangle has been formed with him, Rae and I. No matter what we did this week, we were smiling and laughing. He's a good guy to have around as a friend, and I hope that one keeps growing as well. It's so nice to have all these new, and somewhat new, faces in my life. It's a really nice change and a break in pattern for me.
I haven't really liked anyone since Kyle, there have only been crushes and stupid flings, and I thought I was starting to like someone and it was somewhat of a nice feeling. But once again it built up and then fell to shit. I set myself up and I feel like an idiot. I always seem to end up choosing the ones that I know aren't good for me; maybe I like feeling helpless in the whole situation, i dunno.
Health wise, I think I'm getting there. Now that I'm a vegetarian, I feel like I'm eating so much better. In regards to saying I'm anorexic, I'm not. I know it's not something to joke about, and I feel kind of bad that I've said it around certain people. However, I have lost weight. I weighed myself at the beginning for the week and just now, and I've lost 5 pounds this week. Most likely due to the lack of sleep and I haven't been sitting at home on my ass eating. People think I'm crazy for wanting to lose weight, but i call it my "depression" weight from back in the winter, and i want it gone.
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow for something else that i was called in for, and I'm helplessly nervous, being a hypochondriac and all. They just want to be sure, because my first test results showed up kinda all over the place and abnormal. (I'll explain with better detail when I know what's going on. If i don't write about it, it's because everything is OK)
I haven't seen my parents in practically a week. Especially my father. I also haven't spoken to my brother in what seems to have been about a week as well. Which is one of the main reasons I'm taking a week off going out. I've spent so much time away from home, and I have a lot to catch up on.
Last night and Thursday night were fun. I have to say I expected a bit more out of it, but I'll take what i got. I am so happy that I saw Carly. It's been close to a year since I've seen her, and she is still exactly how I left her. (With shorter, pretty hair, however) I wish I had more time to hangout with her , or say goodbye for that matter. (I got excited for the trip to Taco Bell with Sacha, Mel, Cheapie and Shane) It was also amazing to meet Katie Brown, she was a fun girl to have around, always filled with positivity and smiles. Getting some of those dudes on the tour to dance with Rae and I was priceless. Dancing to Rhianna with Andrew just take the cake though.
Oh my, it seems like this entry has become long and probably tedious. I suppose I've summed it up enough anyway. Excited for a few shows coming up. (Tegan and Sara being one of them).
"I'm guilty of this you should know this
I broke down and wrote you back
before you had a chance to
Forget, forgotten, I am moving past this
giving notice"
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