Thirty Eight

and so sets in the feeling of being stuck somewhere i don't want to be....

i have to start by saying in no way is this me complaining about my job. because i have had worse, and i can have worse, but it was a "take what you can get" job during the peak of my debts and i'm almost in a state of panic that i'm going to be sitting at a desk the rest of my life answering phones and doing what people pawn off on me because they're too lazy to do it themselves. Although i can grow in the company and have already started to do so, I'm just growing into things that i don't even want to do. I don't want to being adding numbers and reconciling accounts. I want to draw, write, be creative. With this job, i'm not even close to any of that. A portion of this panic is slightly due to Morgan's pep talk that i can do much more with my life, and the rest of it is that he's not the first to tell me that.

I'm not getting lazy with work, or thinking of quitting. I still enjoy doing what i do, but i know i can be happy with something else, rather than just settle for it. I do intend on going back to school in the winter, and hopefully this time around something will come out of it. I don't expect to wake up tomorrow and have the best job ever, but i do wish that i'll start to have a little more motivation in my life and the urge to actually get out there and do it.


On a completely unrelated note, the museum is free for the entire fall season. who wants to make it a second home with me?

Thirty Seven

season premier of heroes...OH MY GOD. I am now non-existant to everyone on Monday nights from 9:00-10:00 pm. With the exception of a few ridiculous beards and feminin movements, it was amazing, and i wish i could watch the whole season straight through.

I don't really have much to update, i'm sitting on the balcony and all the branches on the trees are breaking off...kinda scary. Stupid fall, so pretty, until it leads to depressing winter.

promotion at work? hells ya. it's not happening right away, but there's been many discussions on where they can move me and when. I'm probably gonna move into the accounts receivables/claims department. I'll miss my desk if they do move me though. Being a receptionist is kinda my thing. (sad, because i know i could do so much more with my life)

Speaking of receptionists, Pam...and Jim...just hook up already! (yes i am talking about them like i know them.) Rae and I watched the last episode of season two of The Office on Friday and screamed at the television for about 10 minutes until we ran out of our apartment without turning anything off to buy season three. Kinda one of the best moments of my life.

As you can tell, SO much has been going on in my life. Maybe i won't post anything until something incredible happens, but that should be months from now.

Go see across the universe, it's genius, im my opinion and in the opinion of many others.


p.s. come home, i miss you. riculously misspelled drunk texts don't cut it for me.



HI ANDREW!!!!

Thirty Six

It's been a little while, i suppose. although the lack of internet in our apartment contributes to the fact, there has also been a lack of interest as well. There isn't much going on with my life these days, and it seems to be going through a dry spell of nothing but morning routines and daily habits. Alarm goes off at five fourty five am, bathroom, coffee, clothes, breakfast, leave, bus, work, bus, home, movie, sleep. Every day, from Monday to Friday. Then the weekends just consists of a recliner and The Office or Arrested Development. Someone please but a little more entertainment into my life?

This past weekend was quite depressing. Meg moved to Toronto and although I hadn't seen her for close to two weeks, seeing her made me miss her even more. As soon as I walked into the restaurant, I knew what was to come. I miss ya buddy, and I make everyone aware of that atleast three times a day. I really can't wait to get away and come visit already, hope everything is going good so far. (make friends, that's the only way to make it easy. just not replacements to the ones you already have over here)

Rae's friends, Ry and Jamie, stayed at our place this weekend. After hearing so much about them, it was nice to finally meet them. My friends were here too, but as shocking as it was, I didn't see them for more than an hour. (you bet your ass that was sarcasm) Regardless, I had a good weekend. Andrew and I were reunited as well, which always puts a smile on my face.

Hockey game this Friday? Canadians VS Islanders. I'm saving my voice for all the sreaming I will be participating in.

Thirty Five

ahem,
i think, no, i know for certain, that i am losing my mind. Although this has been said many times in my life, i can probably assure you that this is the one time it is lost. Not even Saint Anthony himself can find it. This is all probably due to a lack of communication with the outside world. I'm not talking in a sense that I have no techonology at the moment to converse with friends, because although I have been slacking with my cellular device once again, there is always this wonderful balcony and the connections it provides and the never ending invitations to use Rae's phone if i have to. I'm speaking of a lack of friends, compagnions, amigos, aquaintances, etc. Friday night consisted of Tokyo, which in itself included an hour stay, two jack and cokes, buffering, calling a girl out on talking shit right next to me, a 5 minute dance party and the unexpected meeting with Marf. You would think this would be enough for one to consider it a night of wonderful nordians forming a "social event". But being followed by Saturday night's plans of no one wanting to hang out leading to Rae and I laying on my bed as i fell asleep in and out of a coma while she explained the rules of Kings to me, it came to my attention that I need to get out and start making friends.
This post is clearly a bunch of blabbing to waste time until Rae returns from nourishing Mike Hand's unourished cat. However, the eye lids are alreay getting heavy. Rae, if you are reading this, like you said you would, and I am in bed sleeping, sorry? heart shaped pancakes and the trimming of bald spots tomorrow night? we could enjoy them on our new kitchen table?

On a sadder note, my grandfather has stomach cancer. They aren't doing anything about it, so for now we're just going with it and seeing what happens as time passes.

On a happier note, a cute southern boy visit at the end of the month?

Thirty Four

Alright so here's the low down. I'm sitting literally in the corner of my balcony squeazing every bit of internet i can get from someone who was nice enough to not put a password on their connection. At the moment, the apartment still echoes when you talk, but none the less is coming together. With all the stress that came with finding the place, it's all settled and is really fun so far. Living with Rae is quite ridiculous, and not in a bad way. We are ridiculous. Since there is no phone, cable and slim internet pickings, you can only imagine what we've come up with to entertain ourselves. and all without alcohol. Jay has been over just about every night and we've watched just about every movie possible already. Mama Lipnicky is here for the week, and hopefully we find a little more entertainment for her to enjoy herself.

As much of a high that i'm on now from things finally coming together, my grandfather being in the hospital still sits in the back of my mind all day. We're not really sure what the situation is at the moment, but he's sick. Just when one thing gets settled, there's always something new that finds it's way into the Giammaria's lives.

The cold weather is already calling for little hats and blankets, and as much as i loathe the winter, i love this time of year. I'm so happy right now, and i've said it time and time again, and most of the time it leads to a depression entry, but i really am content. I wish i could see some friends that i've really been missing lately though. I suppose that's the only complaint i have. That, and the fact that my bed feels very large and very empty. Help?

Sheree, my work mommy, gave me a pep talk about going back to school today. As many times as i've heard the exact same words, hers were really inspiring. I really want to make the effort to go back. I feel like i gave up too fast and got distracted with other things, and i should have kept going. I'm in a better mind set over this past year, and I think i can really do it. I already am lacking a social life, so it's not like i'd be throwing anything away.

That's about it. Hopefully Intoenet allows us to connect more often and I can actually talk to the outside world seeing as yet again, I don't have a phone at the moment.

p.s. PJ, I found the box you sent me, and seeing as i'm living in the same building as my brother and don't have blinds yet, certain things in there come in handy very much.

Thirty Three

I don't have the internet right now, so i'll tell you all about my apartment once it's all set up.
come visit me, no cable, phone and internet can get pretty boring.