Fourteen

so the week is finally over and i couldn't be happier. although it was a four day week, work was hectic. Sales reps were in and i had to be all fake and full of smiles and business laughs. Looking on the bright side, however, i was told that i should definitely try to move up to the design team eventually because they can see me drawing for the children's line. Going to work and getting paid to draw, kind of my ideal job.

The long week of not drinking is coming to an end, and it's feels nice to know that this week i didn't ruin myself on too much alcohol and late nights, whereas last week was quite the disaster. (as i'm writting this, Rae's cat is sitting like a person licking itself and i'm laughing to myself) I'm excited for this weekend. A few birthday celebrations, canada day parties, big clean up at home (yes, i'm excited to clean, wanna fight about it?) and who knows what else will happen.

My dad came home today and informed me that he got me the Ipod phone. I get it in two-three weeks because it's sold out just about everywhere and he had to order it. I'm a bit skeptical about it, seeing as i tend to break or lose valuable things all the time. But Rae is co-owner and will help me maintain it's perfect, beautiful form. I will not be able to sleep for two-three weeks, nor will i be able to stop saying "i can't believe i'm getting that phone" every two seconds.

I want to move out, so the saving/hunting begins once again. This time, i want to have atleast three months rent saved up and a bunch of furniture already bought. Hopefully it works out this time. Whether I will live alone or with someone is still a mystery to me.

I want to start scrapbooking all the pictures in the boxes under my bed and make someone really amazing that i can look back on and remember. Single photos alone have quite the epic tale behind them, i can imagine a book.

I miss meg. Alot. She's been gone since Sunday and at first it felt like she was gone for her normal boyfriend visit, but now it feels like my best friend is actually gone. Which worries me a little, considering she's been thinking about moving to Toronto. I want her to. She deserves to be happy, and she is happy. If living in Toronto will make her happier than I don't want anything else for her. But it's a little weird not going over to just sit and gossip and talk on the fuzzy white couch. Just putting it out there that if she moves, I won't help but feel a little lost.

That's about it for my week update. I got paid this week, so i'm sure there will be a weekend update as well. I'm kinda pumped to meet Rae's friend, Ally, this weekend. She's been talking about her so much and i'm sure we'll have a blast with her being here. I think i'm gonna go hang out with Chucks now (aka Guillaume ha) since Andrew the flake McGrath bailed on us tonight.

I got my other phone back. I would post the number but ANYONE can read this. therefore i won't. So if you have my number already, call me, text me, chit chat. If you don't have my number it's either for a reason, or you should message me on facebook and get it.

Have a good canada weekend. oh and p.s. the diet turned into a weight gain fest. I look pregnant. Just putting that out there as well. If you see me waddling down the street, don't think anything horrible about me. It's just a belly full of food.

Thirteen

I shed a pound.

Probably because i haven't drank in two days. It's kinda nice. I woke up this morning went outside, made myself a nice healthy breakfast, then went to work. Then went to Rae's with the original plan to hangout with Chucks, but ended up watching a movie with her, Phil and Marc.

I looked up a whole bunch of vegetarian recipes at work today, I'm excited to make them. I feel like I'm eating so much healthier now that i don't eat meat. It's only been about two months, but I'm even surprising myself let alone the people who thought i wouldn't last a day as a herbivore.

I'm gonna buy a camera with not this paycheck but the next one. I'm super excited. (p.s. Sean or Blake do you still have the one i gave you to fix, which you clearly never got around to? I'm just gonna bring it to get fixed. try to give it to Meg while she's in your neck of the woods please)

Every time i draw something, take a good photo of something or just have a little line in my head I'm gonna post it in my other blog, http://linesandcolours.blogspot.com Right now it's only stuff that is old news, but i took some pictures of stuff i've been "doodling" and I'll post them soon.

That's about it for today/tonight. Happy Hump Day tomorrow! (already) midnight=money in my bank account.
My bed is kinda empty tonight. Like every other night. Someone please come fill it.

Sweet Dreams

Twelve

so after saturday night's adventure (and a half) i'm taking a break off drinking for one week. Rae's gonna do it too. We said we're not going to drink until her friend Ally gets here. Which is sometime next week. I woke up Sunday morning feeling like i got hit by a truck. Then the truck stopped, backed up and ran me over again. Then took off, hitting me once more. I mean, when you wake up in the morning and realize that a nerdy, black, middle aged man turned you down while you tried to dance with him, things are bad. Not only did i get pretty drunk and dance out of the party and down the street, but we watched Being John Malcovich until 6:00am.

The long weekend is over. However, it's a 4 day week, long weekend and then 4 day week again. I had some time today to draw and play music. Which i haven't done since i started working. I wanna redo the picture of the girl smoking, cause i gave it away, and it's probably my favorite one.

I went downtown, walked around and made fun of people, then took a really amazing nap. I wish i had more interesting things to write about, but, ya know.



Go listen to Manchester Orchestra. I kinda forgot
about them since i saw them in Buffalo. But it's all
i've been listening to and "I'm Like A Virgin Losing
a Child" is actually an amazing album. Most of them
are like seventeen years old.

Have a good week.
xo

"There are things that we've done that we cannot undo.
There are things i can't hear when we're telling the truth." - Matt Pond PA, New Hampshire

Eleven

i'm in such an amazing head space right now. i wish you could all be here. i'm just sitting in my chair with a bunch of candles and paint listening to Bright Eyes and Manchester Orchestra.
I deleted my myspace tonight. well, sort of. i deleted all the comments and everything on my profile, and messages. i kept the ones that meant something to me though. i went through my comments. It's so weird how we forget about things that were so funny to us in the past. I was reading things that were making me roll around on the floor, laughing. And as sad as it is, i even forgot i was friends with some people. Genuinely, close, friends.

i blogged my favorite ones cause they made me smile.

" you + me + karl + joe. 4? :o
guess what? you slipped and fell and spilled 4 beers a shot and a drink in my mouth and thats why i got drunk. it was an accident. ok? ok. next time...i keep coat check tickets so that the invisible ones dont fall out of your back pocket where they ever were in the first place. whats gonna kick ass? next year's gonna kick ass. why's that? i honestly dont know." - April 2005

"so many inside jokes...so little space. boy touching, hey look a castle!, computers being in love, sweet talking the bouncer, power failure and crying, feet freezing, i hate you no i love you...ahhh good times my dear. and more to come of course ;)" -January -2005

"I do not look like the singer of eighteen visions...and jamie, dont try and blame this on preeya, ya thats right i know all of your tricks!" - May 2004

"Montreal fucking rocks.... hopefully we'll be back out there soon... OR you can bring your ass out here and party dirty ontario stiles..

Tons of love,
Fit to Burn." -May 2005

"i'll come as long as Dana doesnt make me eat outside like a hobo...
Ill be there depending on what day it is." - September 2005

" too far away *pouts*...i miss..." -August 2005

" TODAY YOU MAKE BARRIE HOME!!!! <3"-April 2006

" hope you can read nautical maps...." - May 2006 "

"ahhhahaha we are so creepy. the best idea was throwing pennies at your window...that way i dont even have to leave steves room! call me sometime and leave a message so i know if you are going to the show tonight...ill try and come after work if im done in time! EVEN BETTER...come see me there!"- September 2006

" ... if i have any problems, i'll just shave his dreads off. they're the source of his appetite and bunk vibes." - November 2006

"hahaha i hit the guitarists face from sum 41 with a big piece of rolled up paper lastnight.. and i almost hit his eye.
im almost as bad as you rolling down the window yelling to the guy from billy talent that their second cd SUCKS. :P" - December 2006

Ten

i haven't really had time to write about anything, but i still don't have much to say. This week has been one of the longest i've ever experienced. Friday will never come. I guess cause there is a long weekend, and i've been a day ahead in my mind.
My week was quite decent. Went to the Barn Burner show on Tuesday and saw an amazing band called Thundra (i'm surprised i remember it). It wasn't my intention to get drunk but of course i did, and then ended up hanging out at Rae's till 3am. (p.s. photobooth pictures with her and Andrew couldn't have possibly been any funnier.) By the time i went to bed, i had to wake up again to head back home and go to work. Wednesday SUCKED at work. It was such a long brutal day. I went for dinner for my aunt's birthday, some pretty good fights broke out, then headed to Meg's to watch the fireworks. (i'm sorry Andrew, i know i said i wasn't going, but i eventually gave in). Which, in the end, only made me even more exhausted and today all i thought about was crawling up into a little ball and sleeping under my desk at work. Luckily tomorrow is the beginning of the long weekend. However, i lose my best friend for 10 days which include TWO long weekends. I guess it's punishment for leaving her on her birthday. wow....it DOES hurt.

I get to see a few people i haven't seen in FOREVER in a few weeks. Carly is coming to montreal for the Silverstein shows and then the Cancer Bats are playing on the 14th (if it's anything like last time in Toronto, yikes.)

The pictures from Shawinigan made me laugh so hard. I want to go back sometime. OR i want to go camping. I'm all about doing fun stuff this summer and so far it's been amazing.

I wish i had more to talk about, but i'm too tired to think. I'm sure this weekend will be interesting enough to write plenty.

Happy St. Jean? ...i guess?

Nine

Poison oak, some boyhood bravery
When the telephone was a tin can on a string
And I fell asleep with you still talking to me
You said you weren't afraid to die
In polaroids you were dressed in women's clothes
Were you made ashamed, why'd you lock them in a drawer?
Well, I don't think that I ever loved you more

Than when you turned away, when you slammed the door
When you stole the car and drove towards Mexico
And you wrote bad checks just to fill your arm
I was young enough, I still believed in war

Well let the poets cry themselves to sleep
And all their tearful words will turn back into steam

But me, I'm a single cell on the serpent's tongue
There's a muddy field where a garden was
And I'm glad you got away but I'm still stuck out here
My clothes are soaking wet from your brother's tears

And I never thought this life was possible
You're the yellow bird that I've been waiting for

The end of paralysis, I was a statuette
Now I'm drunk as hell on a piano bench
And when I press the keys it all gets reversed
The sound of loneliness makes me happier

Eight

Happy Father's Day, Pops

This weekend has been amazing and it just has made me happy and relaxed, plain and simple. I've really been stepping out of the anti-social shell i was living in this past winter. For some reason i found it necessary to not bother with people and didn't want to know anything about anyone. On Friday i went for a lunch/dinner with Meg, Rae and Phil. I probably had the greasiest grilled cheese ever. Then went to American Apparel and what started off as a joke, turned into me actually buying gold, sparkle, spandex pants. (Well, Meg bought them for me...thanks again buddy) I had a sweet CT in them. You would have loved it. I actually kinda love them now and never want to take them off. And I'm not even saying that sarcastically or jokingly. We headed to Drugstore for Andrew's birthday, i ended up seeing a few people i haven't seen in awhile and missed like crazy. i.e. Mikey Niro (who looks like a porn director now). Of course, it's always nice to see Andrew as well. I'm happy i got over my first impression of him.
Woke up Saturday morning to Meg poking me and saying "it's 10 o'clock" and sitting down on the couch, smiling. She was supposed to start work at 8:45 and didn't wake up. it was probably the best attitude I've ever seen her in and that is why she is my best friend. She really just didn't give in a shit. We went to the Laurentians at around 4:30 with Rae, Matt, Mark, and three other people. It was such a pretty, amazing place. It was something so different to what we usually do, and that's what made it so fun. I could have sat on that dock for hours more, if i hadn't jumped in the water and turned instantly frigid for the rest of the night. We had dinner at this cute little bed and breakfast place then headed home in a thunderstorm. We hit up Tokyo for a bout 30 minutes since we only got back to the city at around 2:00. Then went back to Meg's and hung out on her roof for a little.
I was in such a good head space last night. It's comforting to know i finally am getting my life together and just having fun. I'm such a different person compared to how i was a year ago. Everything is pretty amazing right now. And it's weekends like this that i love looking back on. It's nice to be working again, and going out and doing fun things. I also really love having Rae hangout with us. She's an amazing gal.

If i can get a hold of the pics from Shawinigan then I'll post them. I'm heading out for lunch with my parents then a day filled with family fun. (THAT was said sarcastically and jokingly)

"I'm always saying "Glad to've met you" to somebody I'm not at all glad I met. If you want to stay alive, you have to say that stuff, though." - Holden Caulfield, Catcher in the Rye

Seven

Going out when you have to work at 8am the next morning is not the brightest idea I've had, that's for sure. I don't know how some people do it. But to summarize, let's just say i woke up at 6:45 to the annoying buzzer on my alarm clock, hungover and sweating because i apparently closed my window last night when i got home, leaving myself to roast in my tiny little room. Originally, Meg and I were supposed to go to the old port for Moozoos. That turned into going to Karova's at 12am and enjoying the smooth taste of a few PBR'S with her and Rae. I'm not complaining about it, even though i DID try to escape and go home at around 10pm, but i sucked it up and went. People who work everyday can have social lives too. I was testing it out. However, with metros stopping at around 12:50am, it didn't leave me a lot of time to actually have fun and enjoy myself. So i had the bright idea of just cabbing it home. Which i wanted to avoid as much as possible. A nice snooze in the cab and 30$ later, i was home in my bed. Or at least i wanted to be. I decided to have a few drunken conversations. (I'm sorry to anyone that had to deal with that at 3:30am) Finally, i was in a deep slumber at around 4:30am to wake up at 6:45am. So you could imagine that writing this right now, I am pretty much a zombie and wishing i was dead.

However, I did a little shopping last night. Bought some green sling back slip on shoes, black flared capris, a huge gold antique locket, the Patrick Wolf cd and the Fratellis cd. My bank account is back down to very little and it's only Friday. yikes.

I've made a bet with Meg and myself, that i can't tell you about cause people read this and i don't want them knowing certain things. However, if i lose, i have to get "SIQQ TRIBAL" written in sick tribal in the small of my back. (I really hope i don't lose this bet)

It's finally Friday, I'm gonna hit up the museum with Meg and Rae after work (Do i talk about them too much?) maybe hangout in the old port for a bit. I think we'll make an appearance at Andrew's birthday thingy.

It's a long weekend next weekend! can't wait. I gotta go to work. Lucky me.
xo



"You told me you wanted to eat up my sadness, well jump on, enjoy, you can gorge away" - Bloc Party, This Modern Love

Six *edited*

What am I doing? What am I doing? I don't know what I'm doing.
I'm doing the best that I can.
I know that's all I can ask of myself.
But is that good enough? Is my work doing any good?
Is anybody paying attention?
Is it hopeless to try and change things?
The African guy's a sign, right?
Because if he isn't...
then nothing in this world makes any sense to me.
I'm fucked. Maybe I should quit. Don't quit.
Maybe I should just fucking quit. Don't fucking quit.
I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to fucking do anymore.
Fucker. Fuck! Shit!
I'm glad we saved a piece of this marsh.
I know it's small, but at least it's something.
Don't stop fighting.
We're going to save a lot more of this place.
To celebrate, I have a poem I'd like to read.

"Nobody sits like this rock sits.
You rock, rock. The rock just sits and is.
You show us how to just sit here, and that's what we need."


-Jason Schwartzman in I Heart Huckabees

I didn't want to post a final entry until my day was completely over. A few things. you know what really grinds my gears? my neighbor. and no, not the obvious. The neighbor who finds it necessary to rev the engine in his Ferrari at ten o'clock at night in front of the house and then takes off tearing down Henri Bourassa. Or sometimes, when he's feeling extra "edgy", the asshole sits outside for hours revving the engine on his motorcycle. I hope he runs someone over and realizes how much of an idiot he is. And if that doesn't happen anytime soon, i will gladly go outside and inform him of how stupid he looks.
Gear grindage reason number two: people who are annoying about things THEY can't let go of. shit happens. deal with it. Life always has twists and turns that you may not want, but they do.


Steph got voted off CNTM. I guess it was a good decision. I really want Sinead or Cory to win. The rest seem like pretentious bitches. However, i suppose i would be too if i was on that show. (Ew i'm talking about reality tv)


I'm gonna go read and fall asleep with the nice breeze blowing through my window. Tonight's weather is amazing. Things i intend to do this weekend: make an appearance at Drugstore on Friday for Andrew's birthday, Go to the museum of science and that Cosmopolitan Bar in the old port, replace the cards that were lost in the wallet fiasco, have a Pabst night, dinner with the fam for father's day, enjoy summer and everything it brings. Anyone in for any of that. We'll talk.

Jay, heroes group. Discuss.

Goodnight Lads and Laddies

Five

Last night was arts and crafts night. Meg, Rae and I painted zoo animals (as childishly as we could, although some how i ended up painting mine normally) We probably ate the best shrimp ever. I'm on a social life roll. I've been out of the house 4 nights in a row! Which is why it feels like summer. It's been super sunny, and it finally has that warm nighttime weather I've been waiting for. We hung out on Meg's balcony last night and it was beautiful out.

Note to self: Girl's have the worst smelling shoes in the entire world. (the only bad thing about summer)

I'm looking for a new haircut. I don't want to take any length off, but I'm willing to do something pretty layered and crazy. This (_____) much of me wants Natalie Portman hair after seeing Sinead on CNTM get hers chopped off. But i can't give in AGAIN. Maybe something simple but messy like this.

I think we might go see Body Worlds this weekend at the Museum of Science. I'm really excited to see bodies without skin in funny positions doing funny things.

Things I need to buy while I have a job:

-New Camera
-Laptop
-Pay for driving lessons/registration/insurance
-Tattoo my feet & shoulder
- clothes
-shoes
-NEW CELL PHONE


that's about it. I'm gonna go find something fun to do tonight!
bye

"I hope you always find someone to take you home to put you into bed, kiss your cheek, and check your pulse make sure you're still breathing, with their hand up to your nose. I wish that could be me, but it's just not possible"
-DNTEL ft. Conor Oberst, Breakfast in Bed

Four

Don't act like YOU don't.



This weekend flew by. Maybe it's because for once i actually did something other than sit around the house. My uncle, aunt, cousins, and other aunt came over for dinner tonight. We witnessed my 6 month old cousin stand up. It was the craziest thing ever. He hasn't even started crawling yet!
I was supposed to hangout with Andrew tonight, but it's already 10pm and i have to work, AND i live far. One day we'll get around to it!

Unfortunately i can't go party in Barrie this year for Canada day weekend. i forgot it was my cousin's birthday/dinner celebration. But maybe the weekend after I'll go? I really miss everyone so much. Donna emailed me and updated me on what's going on over there. Wrigley is doing really well. I miss the little guy!

Nicole and Michelle are coming in two weekends! Thank god have I Monday off to hangout (even though i think they only get here closer to the evening). I'm really excited for them to get here. I wish i could see them more often.

This blog is beginning to feel a little pointless. I'm sure you don't care about my day. I have a weird, creepy story though. Meg found out that someone googled "aleasha ann" and then lurked her profile, because when you type in my name in google my profile on myspace is the first link that pops up and then her profile is sub linked under it. If you are reading this (chances are if you go through the trouble of googling us, you are reading this) YOU ARE CREEPY.

Arts and crafts night at Meg's tomorrow! (This isn't an invitation, by the way. I'm just pumped for it)
oh, and I'm bringing "bogus" back. It might not have ever left, but i think it should be used more. Like, "that's bogus!"

I'm off to bed. have a good week everyone!



"If I die clutching your photograph Don't call me boring, It's just 'cause I like you" - Voxtrot, The Start of Something

Three

grand prix weekend

I walked around downtown today with my brother, his roomate and his roomate's girlfriend. It's such an amazing weekend in Montreal. Some streets are closed off and there's little tents with things going on and EVERYONE is outside, having a good time. Last night i met meg at korova's. We sat outside for awhile and had a beer. It was cool to hang out with Matt and Mark again (i really have to stop doing that thing where i just stop talking to friends, cause i always seem to be reminded of how awesome people are when we hang out again); and Rae is probably one of the funniest girls i've met in awhile. It's also always a plus to have someone who has a similar personality to mine and meg's. Got a little drunk and a little stoned and kicked ass playing PacMan. (i do intend on going back and finishing what i started...by the way)
Meg's floppy hat and new hair inspired me to draw something cool. It isn't finished yet, but when it is i'll post it. It's kinda got this femme fatale thing to it.

So there's a million shows i want to go to coming up. Voxtrot, The Great Nothern & You Say Party! We Say Die!, Shiny Toy Guns, Osheaga (obviously) which includes Placebo, Smashing Pumpkins, Stars, Explosions in the Sky, Interpol, Arctic Monkeys, Amy Winehouse, Paulo Nutini, Feist and more! Anyone wanna get a little rowdy and come to some of those with me?


Here's something to watch,

Hanasakajiijii (Four: A Great Wind, More Ash)
Anathallo


p.s. Sean, i browsed through your blog and it made me miss all the funny, witty, clever things you say. we need to hangout :(



"You have a serious problem of distorting reality. You could sleep with the entire planet and still feel rejected" - Stéphanie, The Science of Sleep

Two

can someone (blake edwards) tell me what in the world "gg" means??

Last night Derrick was telling me about the alley ways in Australia covered in art. Street art, graffitti, hanging pictures, set up light boxes. I wish people could do that here, but it would most probably get torn down or "edited" to suit someone's childish humor. Although there are some amazing things you'll find laying around. There's certainly a lot of amazing graffiti here and there. And the dude that draws on the sidewalks with chalk. (or is that in toronto?) i want to draw or paint something really crazy and huge. (your painting is on the way) but besides that. Anyone have any suggestions? Let me know, maybe i'll combine all the ideas i get into one big thing.

Here are some links to things I'm obsessing over these days:

Season One of Heroes
Watch it, it's amazing

The Science of Sleep
It has such a pretty script

Post Secret
They update it every Sunday


ENJOY
xo



"You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first" - Regina Spektor, Samson

One

dear reader,

I've decided to rid of Livejournal because, well, just because.
blogging is so much "cooler" anyway.


You won't find anything else but thoughts and postings of things that make me think.
no more vents, gossips, complaints, or cowardly remarks written instead of said to people.
(although i suppose this includes a BIT of each of those...but only in this entry, i promise)

anyways i'll give you the quick update.
I'm trying to get myself together:
I'm working again. and this time it's an actual job. not an excuse to make money. I'm a receptionist at a clothing manufacturer and i lucked out, only having to cross the street when i have to go to work. Which also sort of makes me feel trapped in St. Laurent since i wouldn't want to move and have to travel here everyday. However, it's a good job that I think can turn into something steady down the line.
A few weeks ago my wallet was lost, then found, and now is lost again. A taxi driver found it in his car, and gave it to a police officer who notified me. Except he put it in the mailbox of my old address and now it is gone again. So i have to go through the whole "cancel the cards, get new ones" process. Which kind of really puts the "starting off fresh" idea into effect, i suppose.
I'd like to go for my lessons for driving and get my license. It would make living far a lot easier. (and the last minute road trip to shows process easier as well, instead of asking people we don't like to drive)
I think i'm fixed in the relationship department. I was bitter and upset and tried to hide the fact that i missed Kyle with just talking shit on him. To be honest, i probably only got over it a month ago, but i did; and i gained a lot from it. I hope he finds that he's looking for.
I've managed to make friends with people i didn't think i would ever befriend. One in particular is Michelle. I let my idea of her get in the way of seeing who she really was; and she really is amazing. It takes a lot in someone to come out and tell me what she told me. That's what made me realize she's a friend worth having.
Are you ready for this one? I'M OUT OF DEBT. (almost) I'm out of debt with important, scary things. (i.e. visa & rogers) I still owe Donna rent money, which is in the process of being paid off. I think being out of debt is another reason why I'm enjoying my job. I know I'm working to have money to put towards being happy and having fun. Instead of getting paid every second week and seeing it disappear instantly to online banking payments.
I've discovered some amazing music. (Anathallo, Patrick Wolf, The Futureheads, Datarock, The Great Nothern and about a million other bands). I've put more effort and time into playing guitar and singing as well. I guess that thanks to Jay. It's something i take the most interest in, but the thing that I've given the least attention to in the past.
After about a year of a really hard time, my dad is finally working again. (and on his way back to perfect health) The mood is so different in the house now. My parents seem really happy, and they're on their way to paying off their debt. It'll take awhile, but i know they can do it. I've gotten even closer with my mum. I don't think there isn't a thing that i keep from her anymore. I used to be so scared to tell her about things that were bothering me. Even since "Aleasha's Breakdown 2007", i really opened up.
Still kicking with the best friend. (Meg for those of you who live under a rock) We've grown up so much and it's amazing. Even though we've become hermits, sitting on that uncomfortable blue couch, watching movies still counts as a good weekend. (We still manage to walk red carpets at music events with over priced cover charges which we manage to avoid. And we still manage to drink ourselves silly and laugh about it the next morning) I have gone through so many friends in the past and that was simple immaturity. It's comforting to know that I'll always have her.
I can't complain about anything right now. I only have one worry. And it's something I know can be fixed with time. Life is amazing; and even though I have the bad moods once in awhile, or miss my ontario friends (sean, blake, nicole, georgie, michelle, kyle jackson, chantal, even the mugshot boys), or experience something my bad luck brings upon me, i know it's life. And I'm lucky to say i have everything i just wrote about. (Love would be nice, i kinda miss having someone say "I Love You" to me, and i miss saying it back to someone. But I'm being patient cause rushing it does not work. There isn't anyone right now I could see myself saying it to anytime soon which is kind of unfortunate. Maybe one person.)




I promise my entries won't be this long everyday. I just wanted to start it off. I promised myself i will post something everyday. Even if it's just a line from a movie i liked, or a song i suggest you listen to.
That's it for now i guess, i should go to bed. Sweet dreams.


If you've read all the way to here you're crazy.




"If we all don't take cover, we're all gonna fall back in love again" - Brand New, Coca-Cola