Fifty-Two

i suppose there has been a lack of posts coming from this gal, but i just haven't had the time to sit and actually write down my thoughts. Lack of time as well as lack of words to say. This month has been an emotional roller coaster, more downs than ups, of course. To sum it up, as most of you already know, my grandfather passed away, with my grandmother following behind a week later. It was a bitter sweet ending to all of this, and as much as i miss them, i know they're together.
After all this tragedy, there managed to be some smiles that were sneaked in. I finally turned 21. Although it scared me, it also felt much overdue. Jay threw me a surprise birthday party. It could have been at the worst place, in the worst city with the worst music playing, but all that mattered was everyone i missed and love was there.

There's more going on in my life, but I would rather not talk about them. I guess it's almost wrong to say but I'm pretty content. Minus the obvious, there's been some interesting situations that I've found myself stuck in lately. I've also managed to learn a lot about the person i want to be. So you say whatever you want about me, but forgiveness is the biggest word in my vocabulary now.




"if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied,
illuminate the no's on their
vacancy signs. If there's no
one beside you when your
soul embarks, I'll follow
you into the dark"