Twenty Nine

Every once in awhile, I fall off my tracks and become distracted by certain things in my life. Presently, I am definitely off the tracks. In previous cases such as these, I would have given up, quit my job, watched movies all day in bed, until I was heavily back in debt and telemarketed my way out of it. Luckily there have been eye opening experiences occurring in my life lately, and I've been able to stay in there. I keep telling myself to focus, and this is exactly where I should be. Of course it's nice to not work, stay out late, enjoy the day. However, ever since I've started this job, I've gotten my life back together. With an extra bit of responsibility attached, I suppose.

Anyways, basically what I'm saying is that I have a lot going on in my life right now, good and bad. Rae and I were accepted to the apartment we applied to. Which is in my brother's building, down the hall from him. I'm moving up in my job already. I'm getting better with money. My best friend is moving to Toronto. I'm starting to look for a boyfriend. I think it's time, I'm ready to fall in love again and all that jazz. I'm beginning to value certain friendships I have had and have recently made.

Summer is coming to an end, and even though I can't say I did a lot of eventful things, it was still an amazing summer, for myself. Mostly because I think this is the summer where I and a lot of the people around me have just sort of grown up. Things aren't what they used to be, and it's not necessarily in a bad way. Even though I have tendencies to remind myself that we're all getting older and things aren't going to be as rowdy and adventurous as when I was 17, I still find myself sighing in relief that those times are over and it's time to start a whole new part of my life. I wanna have an amazing job, and I'm already close enough to having that. I want to fall in love, get married, have babies. (Not right now obviously, but I want to find someone that I can see myself doing those things with eventually) The days of seeing what bars I can get into, how much I can drink, all in all , what sort of trouble I can get into, are over. And after that slope of my life so far, I am one hundred percent happy.