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dear reader,

I've decided to rid of Livejournal because, well, just because.
blogging is so much "cooler" anyway.


You won't find anything else but thoughts and postings of things that make me think.
no more vents, gossips, complaints, or cowardly remarks written instead of said to people.
(although i suppose this includes a BIT of each of those...but only in this entry, i promise)

anyways i'll give you the quick update.
I'm trying to get myself together:
I'm working again. and this time it's an actual job. not an excuse to make money. I'm a receptionist at a clothing manufacturer and i lucked out, only having to cross the street when i have to go to work. Which also sort of makes me feel trapped in St. Laurent since i wouldn't want to move and have to travel here everyday. However, it's a good job that I think can turn into something steady down the line.
A few weeks ago my wallet was lost, then found, and now is lost again. A taxi driver found it in his car, and gave it to a police officer who notified me. Except he put it in the mailbox of my old address and now it is gone again. So i have to go through the whole "cancel the cards, get new ones" process. Which kind of really puts the "starting off fresh" idea into effect, i suppose.
I'd like to go for my lessons for driving and get my license. It would make living far a lot easier. (and the last minute road trip to shows process easier as well, instead of asking people we don't like to drive)
I think i'm fixed in the relationship department. I was bitter and upset and tried to hide the fact that i missed Kyle with just talking shit on him. To be honest, i probably only got over it a month ago, but i did; and i gained a lot from it. I hope he finds that he's looking for.
I've managed to make friends with people i didn't think i would ever befriend. One in particular is Michelle. I let my idea of her get in the way of seeing who she really was; and she really is amazing. It takes a lot in someone to come out and tell me what she told me. That's what made me realize she's a friend worth having.
Are you ready for this one? I'M OUT OF DEBT. (almost) I'm out of debt with important, scary things. (i.e. visa & rogers) I still owe Donna rent money, which is in the process of being paid off. I think being out of debt is another reason why I'm enjoying my job. I know I'm working to have money to put towards being happy and having fun. Instead of getting paid every second week and seeing it disappear instantly to online banking payments.
I've discovered some amazing music. (Anathallo, Patrick Wolf, The Futureheads, Datarock, The Great Nothern and about a million other bands). I've put more effort and time into playing guitar and singing as well. I guess that thanks to Jay. It's something i take the most interest in, but the thing that I've given the least attention to in the past.
After about a year of a really hard time, my dad is finally working again. (and on his way back to perfect health) The mood is so different in the house now. My parents seem really happy, and they're on their way to paying off their debt. It'll take awhile, but i know they can do it. I've gotten even closer with my mum. I don't think there isn't a thing that i keep from her anymore. I used to be so scared to tell her about things that were bothering me. Even since "Aleasha's Breakdown 2007", i really opened up.
Still kicking with the best friend. (Meg for those of you who live under a rock) We've grown up so much and it's amazing. Even though we've become hermits, sitting on that uncomfortable blue couch, watching movies still counts as a good weekend. (We still manage to walk red carpets at music events with over priced cover charges which we manage to avoid. And we still manage to drink ourselves silly and laugh about it the next morning) I have gone through so many friends in the past and that was simple immaturity. It's comforting to know that I'll always have her.
I can't complain about anything right now. I only have one worry. And it's something I know can be fixed with time. Life is amazing; and even though I have the bad moods once in awhile, or miss my ontario friends (sean, blake, nicole, georgie, michelle, kyle jackson, chantal, even the mugshot boys), or experience something my bad luck brings upon me, i know it's life. And I'm lucky to say i have everything i just wrote about. (Love would be nice, i kinda miss having someone say "I Love You" to me, and i miss saying it back to someone. But I'm being patient cause rushing it does not work. There isn't anyone right now I could see myself saying it to anytime soon which is kind of unfortunate. Maybe one person.)




I promise my entries won't be this long everyday. I just wanted to start it off. I promised myself i will post something everyday. Even if it's just a line from a movie i liked, or a song i suggest you listen to.
That's it for now i guess, i should go to bed. Sweet dreams.


If you've read all the way to here you're crazy.




"If we all don't take cover, we're all gonna fall back in love again" - Brand New, Coca-Cola